Yes Roy I can relate to the emotional side of reality, I have had a emotionally challenged life & pick up vibrations from people & places. It can be very overwhelming & I have to forcibly seek solitude.
I also live in a remote area, surrounded by trees, deer, rabbits etc & although I enjoy being in the fields & woods with my dog I struggle to connect with “nature” as even there & everywhere really it feels fake. Which thinking about it is strange to me as I’ve searched for connection to people & finding my true home all my life.
It was David Icke’s book “the trap” that open my eyes & changed my perception of what is happening around me after it coming up as a suggestion on audible. It explained so much & answered so many questions, I am so grateful to have found this platform. It helped me separate myself from toxic relationships & from situations I didn’t need to endure anymore because I understood they were just constructs to drain my loosh & perpetuate my suffering. It’s very freeing when you realise you don’t have to be a certain way or stay in touch with someone because you always have been – it’s just the general emotional energy & collective fear I pick up from being around the public & places that I struggle with mostly now.