How do I know if I am connected to my divine spark?

[buddhaflower79]

I have always been sensitive to atmospheres, people’s energy’s etc & pretty much felt I’ve never belonged here – felt I was different to anyone around me. I stumbled across “The Trap” & have slowly become aware of what’s happening in the world & the increased acceleration. I feel I am still just human & although I can see events on that level, I feel I can’t go deeper to break through & use my divine spark consciousness either through knowledge or meditation etc. I have been a truth seeker my entire life & still cannot access my own wisdom. Maybe I’m trying too hard, I would like to connect to my heart & inner wisdom.

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[Sarah]

Your first sentence is a pretty good description of myself 😀 For so much of my life I felt like I didn’t ‘fit’ anywhere.  I always felt ‘different’ but I could never quite put my finger on how. I never really knew who I was and just went along with how I perceived things should be based on what I saw of everyone else around me.  I was a completely programmed sheep, although I always felt like there was something more.  Every time I tried to explore that ‘something more’ my programming kicked in and I would go back to attaching labels to myself in an attempt to find out who I was. I began to see the reality of the world throughout the covid nonsense; it was a very scary period of time for me coming to terms with the fact that reality was not what I had believed it to be my whole life.  Now though, the perception of the world I have feels like the truth, I don’t really know how to explain it, my perception of reality before was an illusion and I think part of me knew it was illusion so that’s why I felt like I didn’t belong.  Now that I can see how things really are (while keeping in the back of my mind that I don’t know everything and can still be fooled), I feel for the first time in my life that I ‘fit’, I belong.

When the rabbit holes I tumbled down began to lead me to questioning the nature of reality I was so overwhelmed by it all.  I’d spent years looking for a belief system that could explain who I was, where I came from, why I was here, why I could feel energies, etc but nothing ever felt right.  The first time I heard David Icke say that we are all one consciousness having a brief human experience I felt a calmness and a realisation that it is really quite simple in the end. It’s not that I’ve never known who I was, I had just forgotten. It’ll take time for me to remember. Everyone’s experience will be unique to them, for me striving to live in truth, love and creativity, to always do the right thing, listening to my own intuition, being open to the knowledge that there is always more to know, and accepting that the nature of being human means I won’t always get it right, is how I see being connected to my divine spark. 

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[Anonymous]

hm – try it this way – You as a Divine Spark that has a Matrix Simulation Experience – ARE ALWAYS in Touch of yourself – ALWAYS – 
BUT – most dont hear the call of themselves – they dont try to here it right – 
SO – you ARE ALWAYS in Touch with yourself – ALWAYS 😉
BUT most dont have a Reach to themselves – probably the least – in Percentage – nearby NOBODY
Why ?
you go to the Fake inspired Reincarnation – to the MindWipe
forget everything you learned about the Matrix before –
and make the same and same and same mistakes over and over again – 
its designed this was – for Looshfarming – Harvesting 

you forgot who you are (Divine Sparks – hopefully) – and you are NOT a HUMAN etc ….
you forgot where you are – Matrix Simulation
you forgot what this is – Looshfarm 

and so you RE-Incarnate always and always more again – 

make absolute no sense – what a bad game – nobody would play this sh*t voluntarily – nobody 😉

so – the real deeper sense of this Simulation Matrix is to hide something from our real nature (Divine Sparks DS)

so the DS cant via MindWipe not understand and are betrayed by Looshfarming – 

but – if you (DS) are starting the process of Awakening – to what you really are – Conciousness – Awareness – FullPotential – 
not only trapped in this Matrix – you will find a way to get out of this Simulation Sh*thole – 
and at the End of Decoding 3D – you have the only possibility – in 4D Astral – to leave the Matrix – only then – 
this is the only point I know – 

you have to withdraw all your Matrix Thinking – all your Emotions, Feelings, and LET EVERYTHING GO – NO MORE ATTATCHMENT TO THE SIMULATION – NO

and this is – from my own received Downloads of Truth – via pure Intention of the Great Spirit – the Field beyond the matrix – the only point to escape this endless Reincarnation Cycle in this Matrix Realm (3D and 4D etc) – 

hope you can follow me and my bad english – as I am Austrian in here 😉

[buddhaflower79]

Thank you Sarah, I can relate to alot of what you said, my whole life has been about finding out who I am & where I came from. I’ve also had quite a sheltered life in that I keep to myself,  mainly because of a very dysfunctional upbringing that set me on the road to find my true self. I remember when David Icke first spoke of his awakening back in the 90’s & didn’t really take any notice but since reading some of his books since last year it’s really opened up my awareness of seeing the theatre unfold sometimes daily & how I was so blind before.  I’m very grateful for this opportunity to be a part of this platform because I too feel like I may have found my tribe I’ve searched for all my life. 

[Sarah]

Miss Saigon – I agree that everyone is always in touch with the divine spark within them, it’s just a case of remembering.  From birth we are constantly programmed, constantly distracted and so many people can never break through that so they never remember.  And yes, you have to let everything go before you can really see, which is not something that is easily done.

buddhaflower79 – in your original post you mentioned about meditation. I’ve always struggled with meditation, it was something I always felt like I should do but every time I’ve tried to meditate I’d just become frustrated because it wasn’t happening for me.  Recently I realised that actually I meditate a lot without even knowing I’m doing it.  When I watch the sunrise or sunset, when I sit in the garden listening to the birds and feeling the breeze around me, when I’m cross stitching in silence (although that doesn’t happen very often as I usually catch up on Ickonic when I’m stitching!), are all moments when my mind is quiet and I can feel the connection to divine spark without trying.  Don’t know if that helps but I do think we can sometimes be trying so hard that we end up missing what is there all along!

[Anonymous]

hm – I wanna take the point on meditation  – 

I think – from my own experience – Meditation is a good thing – you can clear yourself from thoughts – thoughts, feelings, emotions, even Soul – as Container 4 Reincarnation – they are all OF THE MATRIX – that means – they are of NOT OF YOU – JUST OF THE ASTRAL AI HIVE MIND – okay – if you clear your AI HIVE Mind while meditating – its great – but somehow, somewhere, somewhen you have to RE-ENTER – the Matrix – which is kind of RENT 😉 from Pleroma – Prime Reality – and if and when you re-enter – nothing has changed – so – you have 2 possibilites in here – meditating 4ever – and ignoring what here is – (the Matrix) – or – not Meditating – and discovering the Matrix, and seeking maybe as conciousness (dont know – in the best case you are )
a way out of here – of this escape room – before – ending decoding and coming back in kind of a loop situation – absolute bad – so you can try to craft your own experience in the Matrix – or maybe you want to leave the Matrix – both is okay – but – Meditation – LIKE Hypnosis – or other Alchemy – like Medicaments and Big Pharma is absolute NO WAY OUT OF HERE – you only get stuck with this theme in here – its – when you know the Matrix quadroolegy – 4 Films 😉 cant so good tell in english – so when you do Meditation as other things I stated – you will got stuck here 4ever – because – Meditation is – sorry to say that – kind of a Drug – another kind of drug – it makes LIVE – EVIL 😉 easier in this Matrix – easier to cope – but – that doesnt matter – its gatekeeping – like in the Matrix called – the Keymaker – its Keymaking – and Gatekeeping – that is what Meditation in real is – it reduces pain in the matrix – BUT makes you like sugar and medicine stay here – forever – in this kind of Looshfarm – not a very good point – Meditation is a New Age Thing – kind of a Religion – nothing more – sorry, when I have to state this – its only  kind of diversion – look there – and this does the matrix – so you miss the real point 😉 hope you can catch my bad english – sorry for that -cant do it better – hope you get it ….

[Roy]

The fact that you ask the question in the first place Buddhaflower, is a confirmation that you are connected to your divine spark. The way I feel my avatar is connected is through my intuition or gut feeling. I retrospective I can see how my true essence has been guiding my avatar and if my avatar didn’t listen to intuition, then I always regretted it. 

Since I moved away from a hectic life may years ago and now live quite rural, I have strengthen my telepathic ability. Not with everyone, but with some people and some animals, I have had quite a strong telepathic connection. I feel that such connections is bypassing our avatars (or biological computers as David calls it) and is communications directly between consciousness. Ofcourse I don’t know if that is how it is, but that is what I’m feeling.

I have never had much success with meditation, or OBE’s when I first tried to achieve that in the -80’s, but I have had some success with lucid dreaming recently. Maybe lucid dreaming can be a way forward for you, to try to connect closer to your spirit and heart & inner wisdom?

When I started to focus on achieve lucid dreaming, I searched Youtube on how to lucid dream. I then started to write down my dreams every morning and use the days to mentally prepare to become lucid during my dreams. After a couple of weeks I then had my first lucid dream, which I then squandered away, going flying. 😄 It was fun and short lived ( I woke up to soon), but in future lucid dreams I will try to focus more on gaining information from my spirit.

I have also in a lucid dream met a friend who had recently died, but I managed to become lucid in that dream, when I could see it was something with his eyes. I then realized it was not him, it was something else another entity. But other than his eyes, it was the spitting image of my friend.

But that made me realize, that when I leave my avatar, I will not trust anyone in the astral, because I think the astral is still within the matrix.

[buddhaflower79]

Thank you Roy, I will look into lucid dreaming). I actually think I try too hard (in everything ) & somehow prevent my accession to gain a higher frequency, not seeing the wood for the trees kinder thing. I find it really difficult to switch off or totally relax which in turn hinders any progress. 

 

 

[Roy]

Buddhaflower79 – Yeah, I’m with you there, trying to hard and do not see the the wood for the trees. I like what Sarah said about meditation, that we without even knowing it, are meditating. Watch the sunrise or sunset, listening to the birds, feeling the breeze, the rain, the snow… For me it is a very meditative state to get out in the nature and just become NEO from the Matrix movies (a None Emotional Observer). That said, I can become very emotional, feel the heart, feel the love and warmth flowing thru me, but then deep down realize were I am and not let myself drown in those emotions. Because after all this is probably a demiurge created simulation. So I don’t think I can change it, but I can help make the experience easier for some, like feeding the birds and the deer in the cold winters here up in the mountains were I live. 

The nature is fantastic and breathtaking, but that is when I see it from a distance. Going into nature, one can see the loosh-farming, the horror, the death on all levels. But if it’s like the Gnostics said, that this world is a bad copy of Prime Reality, well that will explain why we still can feel such greatness and connections to nature.

Because in essence we are energy and energy can never disappear, just take other forms. So in my view, in prime reality there will be no need to consume each other to continue to exists. There figuratively speaking, the lion will lie down with the lamb. And that is what I’m feeling traces of here, but this bad copy has been created to be a low energy driven loosh farm and low energy demands fear, horror, anxiety, depression. While I feel Prime reality needs only high vibrations as fuel, like love etc. 

 

[buddhaflower79]

Yes Roy I can relate to the emotional side of reality, I have had a emotionally challenged life & pick up vibrations from people & places. It can be very overwhelming & I have to forcibly seek solitude. 

I also live in a remote area, surrounded by trees, deer, rabbits etc & although I enjoy being in the fields & woods with my dog I struggle to connect with “nature” as even there & everywhere really it feels fake. Which thinking about it is strange to me as I’ve searched for connection to people & finding my true home all my life. 

It was David  Icke’s book “the trap” that open my eyes & changed my perception of what is happening around me after it coming up as a suggestion on audible. It explained so much & answered so many questions, I am so grateful to have found this platform. It helped me separate myself from toxic relationships & from situations I didn’t need to endure anymore because I understood they were just constructs to drain my loosh & perpetuate my suffering. It’s very freeing when you realise you don’t have to be a certain way or stay in touch with someone because you always have been – it’s just the general emotional energy & collective fear I pick up from being around the public & places that I struggle with mostly now. 

[Roy]

Buddhaflower79 – David Icke’s trilogy are really great; The Trap, The Dream and The Reveal. Those three books gave me many possible answers to questions I have had for some time. It also lead me to Howdie Mickoski’s books; Falling for truth, Exit the cave and Empty the cave and also Isabella Green’s book Leaving the trap.  

When you talk about that nature feels fake, it’s right up the alley of what Howdie Mickoski talks about and what he has experienced.

 

[ingeheinrich3737]

My question – when I connect with nature, seeing the breathtaking beauty at one hand and the decay at the other – when it is just a bad copy of the “primary earth” where is it when everything is just consciousness which creates it’s experience? We could talk about “the fall” from the primary earth into the copy (matrix). The picture of the lion frolicking with the lamb is just another construct, or is there a real primary earth we could experience if we wanted after escaping the matrix?

And yes, I also agree that meditation can be quite misleading, especially all those “guided” meditation of self anointed new age gurus. But being still and listen to your inner voice is necessary to detach from all the matrix stuff whilst we still have to live in it.

[Anonymous]

@inge & heinrich – thats Duality 😉

okay – try it this way – Prime Earth is full Potential of all possible Thoughts and with all possibilities and propabilities – every possible Thought 

the Matrix Simulation is like the Animus in Assassins Creed – but not for Humans – its for Conciousness – and you can here perceive a filtert part of the Prime Earth full potential – 

a compressed and filtered extract or sector of all the full potential – its an subset energy field of the Great Spirit – and to run this – all the feelings, emotions, and intentions of pure conciousness divine Sparks are looshed – and Loosh is kind of milked and sent to Astral 4D

when you escape the matrix – you are not only a endless certain being anymore – you loose this – what you gain  – beyond the filters (Maya) – you go from the Wave to the Sea – 
from one Thought made perceived in the matrix – to all thoughts possible – with no preferation of on in particular – you get one – from a single thought and its experience in time and space – 
to only the pulsing energy field – underlying them all …

as this is not the only Matrix Simulation to be – only the Earth one – with certain Matrix Earth rules – there are also other Matrix Simulations with other rules – 
for instance our Matrix is on Point 42 – of all in a row connected quantum fluctuation fields –
but conciousness could also travel to Point 43 – of all in a row connected quantum fluctuation fields – a Simulation with other rules and programmed Laws of Physics etc
and there are a lot of other Points – where NO SOS (Simulation Operating System) was ever introduced and where its only kind of empty (only Potential) 

hope you get what I want to state – words are not optimal – as words can only explain what is decoded in this matrix simulation in 3D5Sense1stPerson – so it is not really usable,
to explain something else – which cannot be decoded here 😉

maybe go to Alexander Laurent and get this theme 😉 maybe he explains it best … dont know …

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